Sounds like a proper nightmare.
Much happier earning my own crust no one else to bother about.
Why do you put yourself through all this C**p?
I don't like working on my own anymore.
You can change that, but it may not happen overnight. It sounds as though you dont want to employ to grow your business rather to improve your working day (which is fine, hating what you do wont end well). I employ and I have had some bad ones its part of the process. You learn as you go along from experience, dont beat yourself up over whats happened. A decent fella with no experience but a willingness to learn is a better bet than an experienced idiot, You arent employing a new mate, its a different relationship built on mutual respect, which both parties need to earn through deeds not words (but unless you already have a few staff) it starts with more words, but remember to deliver on what you promise.
Set out a plan for employing and give yourself a sensible ammount of time to get there, Just make sure you arent taking a silly hit on your numbers to do so, otherwise you may end up with a more serious problem than sole working. Working as you are now knowing that its only temporary will hopefully make the short term problem easier.
Good luck, and take care of yourself, you will get there it just takes time.