Bit late to the party but i add my pennies worth
yes i had a total mental breakdown,after the break up of my marriage losing my dad to cancer.
i couldnt leave the house with out shaking to death and crying my eyes out ,i couldnt look anyone in the eye,the thought of some one talking to me was a scary thought and i couldnt,I was a total shadow of my former self.i lied on the settee for days crying,i could'nt see anything positive and nothing seemed straight forward,and i didn't want to be a problem to anyone and i was in my eyes,
my now wife was strong thank god and got me to the doctors,where i broke down and said "i dont want to be here" i could think of anything straight forward,it was a very dark place
out come
two years of anti depressions,it took longer to come off them than i was on them, 3months off work,and this is why i took up window cleaning and packed in a well paid managers job,i set my self small achievable goals and took each day at a time,i exercise and the wife started running with me,i talked and learnt to talk about my problem,its not shameful,and i learnt to read the signs when i am going back to that dark place,sometimes i get it right and dont but other times i dont get it right and i hit that dark place
alcohol was a big problem because it made me the person i wasnt,in fact it made the problems bigger and worst,and the bottom of the glass doesnt talk to you...fact
active now, more positive out look and where i want and want to go,somtimes it doesnt work but i have very good friends who i can talk to and i total trust them,and i also learnt never to old to learn somthing new,and when i do get Anxiety i have afew sample ways to cope with it,but its learning it all the time
slacky want to call then please do
now