I had been really quite unwell over the last 8 years suffering from quite bad mental illness. i have been window cleaning for 15 years, built up a very successful business and lost it all, my house, my (ex) missus left me, and had a tax investigation all at the same time and i think i had a breakdown as i was about to take my life and let the business go to pot, i sold some of it off too.
Post 2008 i met my now 2nd wife and i built up the business again from scratch to try to pay back my debts but eventually succumbed to bankruptcy in 2014. Still working as much as i could i was able to keep working but battled with my mental health quite badly, i nearly ended it again. Just wasn't motivated enough, was often starting work at 11am and finsihing at 3pm becouse i was so depressed with the job, me, i felt like a looser, a failure, a turd of a bloke who cleans windows for a couple of hours a day and makes 170 quid or so, enough to just about live.
But i have pushed on, the medications helped me, my wife Debra has been amazing she never gave up on me and i slowly re learned how to be who i was again i came off.my citrolopram in April 2017 and have been feeling much more focused on what i want to achieve.
Trust me if i hadn't of been through all that id be turning over 500k at least by now with 5 or 6 vans. But i am very focused now and i am feeling good and well again, its taken nearly 10 years though