[Miko67]

Had this stuff as well, also a friend of Bills now too n tuned into meditation n meetings n my life's done a 360.
I'm lucky the depression isn't as bad as some and I have people to talk to about it.
Also suffer bad anxiety and that can have a hold sometimes but like others have said it's a mental battle and sometimes I am better not listening to that head of mine for sure.
But with cleaning windows I find traditional helps with the exercise and I can get into a good mood once I start, but the problem was always when or if Id start some days I just wiped off the board but those days are not as many as when I was into the drink n drugs.
Exercise is great medicine also, meditation for me helps too. . We have a coushty number compared to some of them stressful jobs out there so being grateful is another great way to keep the blues from getting on top. Grateful for family house job health etc
Anyway hope that makes sense. Using a phone so not best typed.

all the best miko.i know the road you ve travelled down all too well.

my old alcoholic mate ive known all my life was found dead the other week(45 years of age).thank God I i sought help all them years ago and got clean and sober.i couldnt even get him to one AA meeting.

Sorry to hear that mate. Its brutal and takes no prisoners.
hope your well.

[dazmond]

Repetition drives me nuts. Sister in law eats the same foods on particular days week in week out. Mrs starts the ironing the exact same time on the same days every week. Even sex can be worked out to the same day of the year. The same crap is on at the same time on the TV every day, the same weather forecast every day. The same posts on CIU every night with the same people bragging the same old crap. Tomorrow I will be cleaning the same boring bits of glass, come home and start the process all over again. I'm off to top myself.
See you same time tomorrow.

routine,order and discipline are important but hell dave!im glad my lifes not as boring as yours!!(but then again im not married!)

[Tosh]

Dave you sound like one of those anti-social type characters that is just a nuisance to every other person. I can imagine you riding one of those recumbent bikes holding the traffic up and getting pleasure from that. That or a caravan.

[Dave Willis]

I did have a recumbent fo a month or two recently but that's gone. No caravan.

[Marc Stock]

OK so far things seem ok.

Took 20mg Monday 10 Tuesday 20 Wednesday 10 today and 20 tomorrow

Brain zaps are almost non existent. And I feel like I'm less of a zombie  this week