Yeah she is still living here with me at the mo,sleeping on the sofa now though.We have both got a lot of very supportive friends.
I am keeping myself very busy with work,sorting out the house,and spending a bit of time looking after me,getting a bit addicted to sit ups weights and press ups,think I will have that 6 pack I always wanted soon,not drinking excessively
It will hurt a lot sorting out all our possessions,she has found somewhere close but not too close to live,moves at end sept,going to move back to her parents soon,so we can both grieve.
I have had a troubled past Jim,I was the one who pushed her into becoming a counsellor,we were told that people who finish the degree,split with long term partners,due to how much it changes you.She has said it's like seeing god.
She carries no baggage now,she has worked through all her issues,and wants to spread her wings and fly,and I can't go back on the promise we made.
But she has held my pain for me for the last 12 years,to not have someone doing that,has showed me just how damaged I really am,I can get all depressed and down about this,but I see it as a huge opportunity for self improvement,I will come out of this much much stronger,and be a better person,going to go see a counsellor myself,something I said I would never do,but it#s time for change now,and I am looking forward to releasing all the anger,pain and hurt I have carried with me since being a kid .
We connected on another level,and I want that from my next partner ,without any secrets,or stuff from my past screwing stuff up.