believing I was invincible to keep a big contract happy, the eggs in one basket scenario, regular work, slow payers, but doubled turnover, then tripled, got people in to do carpet cleaning, pest control, asbestos reports, cashflow destroyed, got a decent payment then it started again, this is a major blue chip company, then I found I could not pay pay other people on time, was asking them to wait the 60, as I was getting paid on 90 nett.
Aug 2012, family holiday, wife went with daughter, I worked. Made it up by booking to go away at Christmas as had had a considerable sum outstanding and had managed to pay off sub contractors.
Dec 2012, chasing up payments becomes stressful as bank has now withdrawn overdraft, relations with people who trusted me becomes fraught.
Into the new year and everybody paid,
Long story short, I was being eaten up inside but was only chasing the bigger jobs, march fell asleep on motorway, April my best guy quit due to stress.
June my right hand man was back, just to cover my holiday, had a week off and slept all week my wife and daughter enjoyed the sun.
We agreed that daddy should not work anymore ridiculous hours.
July, same company offered me 32 units to clean in 9 weeks, all scheduled all agreed right hand man back at my side and promise of regular payments.
***** ON MONDAY OF THIS WEEK I HAD A HEART ATTACK *****
I HAVE SINCE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH ACCUTE ANGINA AND HEART DISEASE, MOST PROBABLY CAUSED THROUGH STRESS.
Listen to your body and your loved ones, if somebody who loves you, tells you to take a break and forget the work, do it, take the break, because they love you.
We are all tough guys in this industry because we work the hours other people wont, we are all tough guys because everyday we hear, its the cleaner, not its the cleaning proffesional we had to hire.
Sorry this is an essay but if you had struggled to get out of the van, felt tired more than usual, or started to get ratty with the most important people in your life, take a break.
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