You are a bit paranoid.you are perhaps no good James or someone is taking all your work off u
no clee i dont sit and wait for things to happen like a few on here, i make them happen, not paranoid i can see whats happening around me and act on it before it happens!
look at the winter posts where folks were moaning they had no work or no money you dont wait till winter to look for winter work do you, you start now!